Holy

After all I've learned the past few years, going to bible school, sitting in a million sermons, and talking about spiritual things with people around me, often unknowingly, I've thought within myself that I've have God figured out. Holy things become boring which often causes me to not want to seek Him. I don't like to admit that because I feel so humbled yet, it has been true.

But lately, God has been cornering me and showing me that I know nothing of who He really is, and the glimpse I have seen, is nothing compared to the majesty of this beautiful God. One of the most amazing things when I first got saved was that God was such a mystery to me. He left me wondering all the time! There was so much to learn and discover. I was so astounded by the sun rising when I was walking to the bus stop or the flowers in peoples gardens; it was like a piece of Him that was all around me. Sometimes I think we grow and mature, which is inevitable and so necessary but in the midst of our growth in spiritual knowledge, trials, or “church and life things" we forget, we can't really figure God out and when we try, we miss out on this unexplainable holiness of God that keeps us running after Him.

Rachel and I were driving to work a few weeks ago and she played a song by Addison Road I had heard before but I know it was on purpose that I heard it that day. Some of the lyrics said "If you touched my face would I know you? …are you fire are you fury are you sacred are you beautiful? So what do I know of holy?"  Hearing those words was very humbling to me. It made me wonder if I fear God at all anymore and if that is why it has been so hard to find Him because I thought there was nothing new to find.

As the church, we have to be careful of making God too small, too normal, too understandable because if we are all honest with ourselves, not one of us is able to truly comprehend this God we serve. We are just people who have been touched by pieces of him. Our minds are so generic compared to the vastness of God. We can't begin to try and wrap our head around this God who would lay down his own life or the kind of love or devotion that would take, because it’s not really comprehendible. In fact, it is completely crazy and that is what makes the gospel so beautiful and life changing. If you take that away, why in the world are we doing this thing called ministry anyway? I had a different blog written but this is what is really on my heart. It’s not really complex but just remember, the Lord is a mystery so approach Him in that way. He wants to show you a new piece of His majesty everyday you wake up and do life. Being stumped and sometime baffled in your spiritual life is the process we walk through that will always make us stronger if we always return.  But to be flying through the bible every day, coming to church and writing down a million notes, crying in worship, but never really being caught and exposed to the true holiness of God, is a scary place to be. When you are exposed to His holiness, its life changing! It makes three words in the bible break your heart or just the sound of a guitar brings you to your knees, and a sermon becomes a way of life. 

If you are having a hard time finding God right now in your life, maybe you just need to take off the ideas of who you think God is and what you have learned and let Him blow your mind, and trust me, you will want Him and search for Him! Let Him repaint a picture of another side of Him every chance you get. I believe that if we keep this heart, our influence on this broken world and church will be limitless and truly impacting on people that are also waiting to partake or be re-inspired in the mystery of the Lord!

We can't fix the broken church without the majesty and mystery of our God!

Psalm 145:11-14 (Amplified Bible) "They shall speak of the glory of your kingdom and talk of your power, to make known to the sons of men God's mighty deeds and the glorious majesty of His kingdom. Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures throughout all generations. The Lord upholds all those [of His own] who are falling and raises up all those who are bowed down."

-Wendy

Comments

[Lori]

Great post, Wendy and a wake up call. Thank you for sharing.

[Rocky Veach]

Really, really good one, Wend...I love your heart and the anointing that flows from its openness in this blog! Pass it on!!